When running a bath makes me wonder if I have enough energy to get in it.
When taking something out of the freezer makes me need an half hour rest.
When I work hard to eat enough to keep me going and I just can’t keep it down.
When I watch my oxygen saturations drop and my heart rate rise.
When I phone the hospital in defeat and ask for an appointment as soon as possible.
Then I truly know that my life is not in my hands.
Again, I realise that I have no resources of my own to fall back upon.
Here is weakness.
Today I have nothing but my God.
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I have no comments that would sound trite. So …. I've read your post and am humbled.
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We've been anxious to hear how you are doing – thank you for taking time and energy to post. Praying for you always!
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What you said reminded me of a prayer that helps me a lot, you've probably heard of it, it's called St Teresa's (probably spelt wrong) bookmark:
Let nothing disturb thee,
nothing affright thee;
all things are passing,
God never changeth!
Patient endurance attaineth to all things;
who God possesseth
in nothing is wanting;
alone God sufficeth.
Especially the last line, hard lesson to learn though. Still praying xxx
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“And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, My strength is made perfect in weakness…”” 2 Cor. 12:9
I am praying for you, Ruth!
x
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No no. Here is your strength.
Today you have God the Almighty
In whom you trust.
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